FINALLY WATCHING TORCHWOOD OMGWTFBBQ WHUT.


devon, i WILL call you tomorrow.
DUDE.

Current Mood: shocked

i've made a few decisions in my life in the past week. first is that i'm absolutely not going to the wedding. that would be beyond masochism and honestly i don't think i'm strong enough. it wouldn't really benefit anyone and it's not worth the angst.
second --and this one really might kill me more-- i really shouldn't talk to him anymore. in about a month and a half, he'll start calling me wondering why we've not talked and i suppose i'll just have to deal with it then.

i've also realized just how many good friends i actually have. this isn't really that big of a shock, but just the fact that hunter let me cry (literally) on his shoulder for about six hours last tuesday means a lot to me. that tc and kelly fed me jameson and brownies helped too. i had calls from melanie, rae, laura and devon all asking me if i was holding up ok. you guys are all awesome and i really don't know what i'd do without my friends.

and perhaps i'll let a new kind of romance into my life. ::shrug:: it's worth a shot, right?
the kind of romance that doesn't start with a capitol "R." the kind that is completely chill and not presumptuous. the kind where i'm not really expecting anything so every day is a lovely surprise.
i'll focus on that for now. and drink lots of tea.
good plan.

Current Mood: okay
Current Music: nicest thing, kate nash

think i'll go for a walk now
i feel a little unsteady
don't want no one to follow me
except for maybe you
i could make you happy you know
if you weren't already
i could do a lot of things
and i do

to tell you the truth i prefer the worst in you
too bad you had to have the better half
she's not really my type
but i think you two are forever
and i hate to say it
but you're perfect together

so fuck you... and your untouchable face
fuck you... for existing in the first place
and who am i... that i should be vying for your touch
who am i? i bet you can't even tell me that much

( i'll just get them all out of the way in one go, shall i? )

Current Mood: but i've worked with less
Current Music: ani difranco

my quilt is done. hooray!

( as promised, i come bearing photos )

i slept with it last night. it's pretty much the perfect warmth for this kind of summer-- just light enough to not be sweltering, but warm enough to keep my perpetually cold ass cozy. i'm one for the weight of heavy blankets (hence my ridiculously heavy goose down comforter for winter) and this one's lacking some bulk, but i suppose for summer it'll have to do. i'm still in love with the colors, which is lucky i suppose. it also seems to go with my room fairly well. i have a penchant for greens and browns apparently. go figure.

when i moved my slightly goth-emo style into the hippie/hipster genre, i've no idea. all the blacks and burgundies in my wardrobe have been taken over by browns, greens and (gasp!) oranges. odd. ::shrug::

anyway. now that this is done, i can work on what i'm actually getting paid to do. like the alterations for TATC. right.
off i go then.

Current Mood: meh
Current Music: gravity, sara bareilles

michael jackson died?

whut.

Current Mood: shocked
Current Music: thriller, michael jackson

i know this will be post three in one day, but apparently i've got a lot to share today. i went from annoyed to interested to annoyed yet again.

can we talk about this for a minute? i thought there was a huge lawsuit with jkr about this whole thing. oh wait. THERE WAS.

and she won. so how is it possible for him to publish, i wonder?
y'know, i really like the lexicon. i use it all the time, but to publish? i'm with ms. rowling 110% on this one. her whole stand is that she completely supports websites and such dedicated to her very popular book series, but she herself is planning on publishing an encyclopedia of harry potter goo. also, it's one thing to have a website, but to try and make a personal profit by essentially making a laundry list of someone else's work is absolutely copyright infringement. that's what the extensive law suit was about. and precisely why she won.

so... published? how? and please tell me none of you are buying/have bought it.

Current Mood: confused
Current Music: still watching the oc

right. well now that my general annoyance with the world has dissipated a bit, i find myself wondering what on earth to do for hallowe'en this year.

now, i know what you're saying. "nicole, for god's sake it's only june." but these things take time, my friends. (not to mention the fact that i usually end up making at least five other peoples' costumes)
i usually know what i'm going to make for myself pretty much a year in advance. i've considered making this for years. the problem with this is that i'd end up spending WAY too much money on fabric and notions and i know it. the good news is, most people would get the reference in a heartbeat. the bad news is, i won't have this to look forward to, sadly.

that being said...
as i'm sure you all know by now, tim burton is doing "alice in wonderland" in 2010. have you guys seen the promo pictures? just in case you've not, ( here's a few )

the cast list is fucking brilliant. and we all know how much i adore alice in wonderland. i'm actually really excited about this movie. i knew it could go one of two ways and it looks like it's actually going in the right direction. hooray!

so. anyone need a stitcher for hallowe'en?

Current Mood: bored
Current Music: watching the oc season two --shut up.

i am Vastly Annoyed. if you don't live in a large city, i'm not sure how much you encounter this particular problem, but those of you who do will know exactly what i'm talking about.

those people who stand out on the street and try to get you to donate to their cause.
i get why they're out there and i even sympathize with their efforts. i try to be nice and not bitchy (like the majority of people who pass them). if i have the time, i'll even allow them to stop me and talk. i explain that i support what they're trying to do, but that i don't have the extra funds to spare right now. i try really hard to be nice to these people. i know they're working on commissions and that their whole job basically sucks.

HOWEVER, when i get stopped by FOUR different people working for the same cause in a TWO BLOCK RADIUS --the last of which actually had the gall to argue with me about my personal financial situation-- i can't help but get bitchy.

seriously. i mean, i know how unpleasant their jobs are. i get that they're just trying to help whatever situation they're promoting and that they deal with rude people ignoring them all day long, which is why i try to at least stop and be nice about my rejection. but i get really sick of talking about how financially fucked i am with complete strangers who then ARGUE with me when i tell them i'm worried about rent this month.

normally, if i don't want to be bothered, i'll keep my headphones on and walk with my eyes set straight ahead. these people will step right in front of you, forcing you to acknowledge them by either plowing them down or sidestepping with a muttered "sorry." BECAUSE I'M A POLITE HUMAN BEING. this is NOT an invitation to take my hand, shake it firmly and NOT LET GO, ask for my name and then not wait for the answer before launching into an explanation about how many children in africa are dying per day because i won't spare $50 a week to pay for their medical care.

fuck you, people. where's MY health insurance?

the fourth guy to stop me today was the absolute worst kind. he stopped me on my way to michigan avenue while doing errands this morning. i kindly told him no, that i'd already talked to two of his fellow coworkers in the past BLOCK since getting of the el and that i had somewhere to be, but good luck. the SAME GUY stopped me on my way BACK to the train to get home an hour and a half later, after WATCHING ME politely say no to the THIRD of his coworkers in a two-block stretch. this is exactly how the conversation went:

him: "hey! you're back!"
me: (with headphones on and walking quickly) "and i still don't have any money to give you"
him: (steps right in front of me, forcing me to stop and seizes my hand in attempts to shake it) "what's your name?"
me: (starting to get seriously annoyed) "does it really matter?"
him: "do you know how many children die per day while we're off getting that five-dollar cup of starbucks?"
me: "look. i don't spend five dollars on a cup of coffee. i don't even LIKE coffee. i've talked to you already today and i STILL don't have any money."
him: "it's so easy to say that, but i know you're not as broke as you pretend you are"
me: (can't believe he even just said that) "really? how could you possibly know anything about my financial situation?"
him: (like this is the argument to end all arguments) "because you live in america."
me: "oh you've GOT to be kidding."
him: "all i need is a credit card from you and you'll be saving a child's life every day."
me: "look. i've tried being nice to you. i've tried ALL FUCKING DAY to be nice to you people. despite what you think, i DON'T actually have any money and at this point, even if i did, i wouldn't give it to you because you're annoying the SHIT out of me. i'm leaving now."

and i left.
seriously. i'm more annoyed that he turned me into a bitch than anything else. it's a beautiful day outside and now i'm angry and frustrated. i'm going to get some ice cream out of my freezer, sit on the back porch and try to not think about how i'm going to pay rent on the first with the money i don't have to give to children in africa.

Current Mood: annoyed

well, i finally broke down and installed the air conditioning unit into my window. it's so bloody humid outside. i HATE feeling like i'm melting, even when i'm just sitting on my nifty new futon and chilling out.
the near-tornado over my house was pretty damn cool this morning, though. my roommate and i were standing at the back door looking up at the clouds moving in distinct circular patterns and wondering if we'd actually get to see a funnel cloud in the city of chicago. well, i thought it'd be cool at least. she was a little freaked out.

it's funny. i couldn't really sleep last night. it was like some subconscious part of me knew it was going to storm. i was restlessly tossing and turning until about 3:15am when the storm broke. then i pretty much put my head down and passed out. i always sleep better when it rains. ::shrug::

i did something both highly exhilarating and remarkably stupid yesterday. i signed up for hd_career_fair. this means i will be writing, for public consumption, for the first time in over two years. i'm terrified.

laina_lou is no longer coming to stay at my place on her way home from italy, which is sad. ah well. at least i still have the futon! (can you tell i'm super excited about owning my own futon?)

anyway, the new job is going well. i think i have most of it down by now. i feel like i've not seen anybody at work in forever, though. i guess i just have to get used to holing myself up in the cashroom.
quilt's almost done! i promise i'll post pictures sometime next week when it's actually done.

picked up a gig making some steampunk clothing for a couple friends. i'm actually really excited about it. the style intrigues me and when it's done well (which seems to be rarely) it's really fucking cool. hopefully i can make the outfits well enough to fall into the 'cool' category. we shall see.

on that note, i'm off to sleep in cool comfort. thank god.

Current Mood: blissfully cool
Current Music: bonny portmore, the rogues

so i started my 'new' job today. basically, i got a promotion at work and started training for the new position. the good news is, it looks like it'll be ok. hopefully i won't be bored. the bad news is, i'm already getting some attitude from other people because of it. apparently a fair few people are under the impression that i jumped queue or something. ::sigh:: oh well. being the nice girl always gets boring after a while anyway.

in other news, my quilt is taking forever, but it's looking much more promising. i'm nearly done basting the lengthwise squares so they don't slide all over the place. hopefully this turns out ok. i promise to post pictures once there's actually something worth taking pictures of.

man, this schedule this week is going to kill me.

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: you don't know jack, oliver boyd