dear overly sensitive car alarm guy,




it's not funny in real life. five times this week for over 20 minutes at a time, usually starting before 7am.
NOT. FUNNY.

no love,
~n

ps, i'm the one that called the cops on your ass and got you that 'disrupting the peace' ticket. choke on that shit, asshat.

Current Mood: annoyed
Current Music: the fucking car alarm, still

well, i had a really great two days off tuesday and wednesday. tuesday, hunter and i had a playdate ::grin:: we went to the planetarium (finally!) i've been wanting to go forever and tuesday happened to be the free day, so we went! i hadn't been to the planetarium since i was in grade school and it was AWESOME! hunter and i went to the shedd aquarium about a month back, and i remembered why i love chicago museums so much, so we've decided to hit all of them if we can, preferably on the free days.

after the planetarium, we decided to go for sushi at my favorite sushi place and i got a haircut (not at the sushi place, at big hair). i'd put up a picture, but my camera is absolutely broken. all i have is my phone and i'm trying to figure out how to upload from my phone to my computer. i think i'll have to wait until my technology-friendly boyfriend shows up and does it for me. because i'm lame like that ::grin::

anyway, i chopped a good 8" off the back of my head. it's longer in the front than in the back and there's lots of layers involved. it's really cute, but i can't put it up in a ponytail, that's how short it is! crazy.

wednesday was awesome as well. there was duck and persian jeweled rice involved, tc's cooking of course. we had lots of good food and lots of pie science. it was pretty awesome.

in other news, tim gunn is currently having a melt down on my tv screen. i feel this demands attention. i'm off.

Current Mood: amused
Current Music: watching the project runway season finale!!

so, i finally figured why i've been so damn bitchy this past month: i stopped taking my sleeping pill. i haven't been taking it because i haven't needed to. i've actually been sleeping with hunter. when i told my doctor this, that i'd been trying not to take it, he said it was good, but that i was "living in sin to cure [my] insomnia," which i laughed heartily at, but it's true. something is making me sleep around him, so i figured the less i need to take my pill, the better right?

well. i take trazodone because way back in college when my insomnia hit the worst, they tried me on a number of different pills, but they either didn't work or gave me migraines because they conflicted with my allergy meds. trazodone worked and it left me the least drowsy in the morning. the thing is, trazodone is actually most commonly used as an antidepressant.
i've been taking it for going on four years now and i suddenly stopped taking it about a month ago.

apparently my body got used to it.
so now i apparently need antidepressants.
awesome.

bah. i started taking it again a couple days ago, after i realized why i was being such a monumental BITCH to everyone lately. i was seriously crabby and pms-y and bitchy all the fucking time and i couldn't figure out why. i thought it was because i hated my job (which i do, but at least there's more to it now). for the record, hunter is a fucking saint to put up with my bullshit. saint. but anyway, i went back on it and i already feel better. i'm in a better mood, i'm friendlier, i don't have as many pms-like breakdowns. it's brilliant. but i'm groggy as shit in the morning. i'll have to go back to my doctor and see if i actually need a chemical to re-balance my brain into being happy. how pathetically sad is that? bah.

HOWEVER, project runway last night. OH EM GEE TIM GUNN IS MY ABSOLUTE HERO!! i think i broke something, i was laughing so hard.
that apron. christ.


in other news, we officially started playing christmas holiday music today. ::sigh::

Current Mood: drained
Current Music: one sweet love, sara bareilles

where the perfect pearl of sadness resides...

r.i.p stella mae


( the only cat i ever really liked )

my heart goes out to awibs, who loved her dearly. she had a very good life of sixteen years and hopefully she's in a better place now.


but if you ever need an ear, you can just come and press it there
and listen to the sound of the ocean inside

Current Mood: sad
Current Music: promised land, ani difranco

so, about that migraine. hate hate HATE.

in other news, i finally got a new phone. i'm a little obsessed with it, but i feel justified. after all, it's been a really long time since i've had a phone that had any bells and whistles. i ended up getting the lg env3. it's pretty spiffy and now i can use interwebz on my phone. hooray!

still hate my job, but at least this migraine today let me call off. it still hurts, but whatever. i slept for nearly twelve hours. that's gotta be a record.

so now i'm watching svu and house on the couch, getting lovins from hunter and miller. it's all good. hopefully my head will quit throbbing long enough to carve pumpkins (finally).

i'm hoping we won't start playing christmasholiday muzak until after thanksgiving. i don't think that's possible, but i can dream. last year we started on november first. oy. speaking of which, we open at three am on black friday. that's gonna suck so hard. bah.

on that note, i'm off to house.

Current Mood: bitchy
Current Music: watching svu

ok, really? i get that it's hallowe'en month and all. i get that horror films and hallowe'en-type movies are supposed to run rampant at this time. i get that, i really do.

but what's with all the vampires that AREN'T vampires?

it started with all this twilight crap. now, i realize that some people on my friends list are fond of twilight. i did try to read the books, but i couldn't even get through the first book, i thought it was so terrible. everyone's entitled to their own opinion, but really. those vampires are NOT vampires. they can go out in the sun, they don't have fangs, they don't sleep in coffins, they sparkle for fucks sake. they're NOT vampires.
and then they made a movie and i can't turn around without running into a fucking edward shirt.

then came the vampire diaries television series. it's basically twilight with a longer running time.

now there's the vampire's assistant. does anyone else see the trend of angsty teenagers who can still manage to make it to their high school classes whilst being a supposed vampire?

i like true blood. at least their vampires still sleep underground and can't go out in the sun.


::sigh:: i miss the days of lestat.

Current Mood: annoyed
Current Music: watching family guy

cuz i've got
no illusions about you
and guess what?
i never did
and when i say
when i say i'll take it
i mean,
i mean as is


well, it's officially cold. i took my air-conditioner out of my window last night and have pretty much unpacked my sweater box. i'll have to put some of my t-shirts away to make room in my closet. i really like autumn. i only wish we'd had more of a summer.

i decided at the concert last week that i'm playing 'overlap' at my wedding. my hypothetical wedding that may or may not happen in the future, that is.

i'm also getting a new tattoo. i've been saying for about two years now that i really want a sewing machine on the back of my neck. well, melanie told me that if she was ever going to get a divorce, we'd go get tattoos together. well guess what. so i'm planning for my new tattoo. probably something like this. we'll see. it's not going to happen until probably january, but i promise i'll post pictures when i get it.

now for the sappy bit: every day i realize how much shit i've gone through to get to this point in my life and i'm just really glad i finally made it. hunter told me last night that he's glad i didn't just write off relationships all together. i told him i nearly had, but since i'm a pretty hopeless romantic i never could really give up.
i'm happier each and every day. it's really kind of ridiculous.
he's not perfect, nor does he even try and pretend to be. he accepts my flaws for exactly what they are and i do the same for him. it's good.

and on that saptasticly dumb note, i'm off to shower and get my happy ass to work.

Current Location: here for now
Current Music: as is, ani difranco

love is all over the place
there's nothing wrong with your face

ANI FUCKING DIFRANCO BABY!
she turned 39 tonight and i scored a ticket to the concert in chicago at the vic. how fucking AWESOME is that!? the vic (for those of you who don't know) is general admission, standing only, extremely small and therefore awesomely intimate. i could have licked her if i wanted (and i kind of really did want to).

OHMYGOD THE CONCERT WAS AMAZING!!! i can't even tell you. it was just AWESOME.
set list:

anticipate
dilate (!!!)
78% water
fuel
new song: splinter
november 4
smiling underneath
sunday morning (!!!)
present/infant
new song: ?
*BIRTHDAY!!!*
two little girls
gravel
new song: which side**
untouchable face
shameless
--
evolve
overlap


*we all sang happy birthday to her after 'anticipate' but her whole road crew came out with a huge cake all lit up held by one of the guys in a pair of briefs and that's all. we all sang again and she actually got a little choked up. it was really cute.

**this song was apparently originally from the 30's. it's a union song about equal working rights etc. and she had us all sing along. it was pretty cool.

it felt like she was looking right at me most of the time because the theatre was so small. that kind of made my night a lot. again, the only thing that could have made it better is if she'd played 'here for now' but i've almost given up on that. i think this makes number 7 for me as far as her concerts go and she's never played my favorite song. sad.

that being said, the concert was fucking AMAZING and i wouldn't have changed a single song.
awesome.

Current Mood: bouncing around like a moron
Current Music: smiling underneath, ani difranco

well, i'm back from tennessee. i had a remarkably good time, though i'm exhausted. it's a seven and a half hour drive from chicago to south fulton. we left at around 9:30 on wednesday night and got in at about quarter to five. everyone in tennessee is ridiculously nice.

( i come bearing pictures: )

i wish i had taken more pictures of their actual house. there's like 87 cats on the back porch and in the house itself. hunter's mom is awesome and so is his brother eddie. hunter was part of a fraternity at UTM, so we went to a party saturday night. i haven't been to a frat party in years, so it was highly entertaining. i managed to get a sunburn in nashville and i practically ate my weight in home-made peach cobbler. all-in-all it was a really good trip. we got in at around 4am this morning and i've got to get to work soon, so i'll head out for now.

i promise i'll take more interesting pictures next time ::grin::

Current Mood: tired
Current Music: f*ck her gently, tenacious d

...and i'm off to tennessee.
wish me luck, kids. i'm nervous.

Current Mood: nervous